I often avoid blogging because I’m always writing in grand generalities. Repeating timelessly boring tripes about life and love. If I were discussing a change in the properties of a neutrino, it would somehow seem more valid, right? I’d be publicly discussing science and inspiring thoughts on the progress of the entire living Earth.
I get lost in that: justifying my actions based on the perceived measurement of their usefulness within the march of technology and enlightenment. Therefore, the things I love doing seem not worth doing. I had a career in the video games industry until I felt it was the equivalent of selling drugs to kids. I write music, but I hate the childish egos and the drunk social scene that it feeds. I see my life’s choices, and most forms of entertainment, as useless. It’s distraction for the rich while countless others starve in silence. This mindstate is crippling for motivation.
As such, the meaning of life becomes some obscure and ever-changing algorithm based on moment to moment appreciation. It’s like an SEO maze of the non-existant soul. I hold education and the scientific process as the saving graces of our world. Does that mean I should be an educator and scientist? I also believe string lights can transform any environment into a safe haven for the mind to relax and function at its best. Does that mean I should start manufacturing string lights?
Neil deGrasse Tyson said something the other night when I saw him live at Tulane University here in New Orleans. I enjoyed the entire lecture, but this is the moment I took away from it. During the QA session, someone asked “How do we get more scientists into the political sphere?” Great question, and a major issue during this time of extreme conservative ignorance in the US. Neil answered, “We don’t need to place scientists in political office. We need politicians who acknowledge and appreciate science.”
The point I’m trying to make, for myself mostly, is that we each already know what we’re good at or what we enjoy doing. We know our strengths and know what needs to be done to honor them. These things may not always align with what we appreciate in the world. This shouldn’t devalue our own choices. We can simply bring our love for what we appreciate into our daily lives and chosen crafts. They can help inform our decisions and escalate the conversation in our own ways. They can help us perform the process with more care and concern for the outside world, making each of our crafts a more intelligent and thoughtful medium.
I like Gore Vidal’s thoughts on Hollywood, after making his money in it. A reminder that you can be fully invested in something while still understanding its true nature. “The theater needs continual reminders that there is nothing more debasing than the work of those who do well what is not worth doing at all.”
Though I never did meet a doctor who scoffed at his own profession.